or AM I?
The day that David deployed was a very emotional day! I have to admit, I did not handle it as well as I thought I would! David and I decided to just drop him off at the airport and say our goodbyes rather than getting a security pass and staying with him an additional 2 hours! The anticipation of him leaving was at an all time high, waiting any longer would have been detrimental to my mental health! If you have experienced anything similar, you know exactly what I am talking about! Sometimes it is best to just say goodbye and GO!
We woke up that morning and both girls had decided to go on to school. Gabby wanted to go and take her AR tests (what a committed student) and Hayley had to take exams (even though the school would have worked with us). Gabby woke up extremely early that morning, which is rare, she is always sneaking a sleep in until the very last minute. I knew immediately when she was up so early that it was going to be a rough day. I encouraged her to go get in the bed with daddy and get some early morning snugs!! Eventually the 2 of them were up and she was determined to go to school. So being the supportive mom that I am, I went along with this decision, even though I reassured her she could stay home! The time came for her to go to the bus stop, so her daddy took her. Because David is so organized and is the “has it all together parent” of the 2, he got to the bus stop with a few minutes to spare. However this is very unusual for me as many mornings my fellow neighborhood moms look out for us and flag the bus down as we drive up and it’s about to drive off! I wonder if he would have gotten different results if she literally had to jump and run to catch the bus that morning! Meanwhile I am at home on the computer, either on facebook or working on my blog, because that is how I escape these days! As I am getting Hayley up for school, David and Gabby return home. Both are blubbering and I knew, we were in for a long hard day! Gabby just could not say goodbye to her daddy. Now David is a strong man, he does not show much emotion about too much, however when it comes to his wife and girls, that grown man can break your heart! We got it together (temporarily) and managed to get Hayley ready for the bus. Our sweet and entertaining neighbor-daughter, Emma, who likes for us to refer to her as our 3rd child, comes over each morning to walk with Hayley to the bus stop. When it came time for Hayley to leave for the bus, she was stopped dead in her tracks by emotion and we decided that David would take them to school. Poor Emma! She experienced first hand the sadness and grief that military families feel when moms and dads are deployed! We all had our family hug, tears a flowing, ugly face cries, and me reassuring how strong we are, we are TEAM HOFFS for heaven’s sake and we would be ok! It took awhile to get it together and David took Hayley and Emma to school. Hayley is our quiet and reserved child, she knew it would be easier for her to just go to school and get it over with than dragging it out all day! And Emma was given clear directions to take care of Hayley!
The morning slowly passed and David, Gabby and I drove to the airport. I had been mentally preparing myself all morning to be strong and not to lose it at the airport! As it is time for him to say “goodbye”, we all 3 had a wave of emotion that still rocks me to the core! Talk about ugly faces! Usually I bury my face in my hands to keep from exposing that ugly face cry! But at that moment, I did not care!! I am sure we were a sight to see! Here we are outside the airport, just a boo-hooing and bystanders watching and I am sure feeling our emotion! I am sure with David being in uniform and the 10 bags he had to check, everyone had to KNOW we were a family of a Deployed soldier! The rest of the afternoon is a blur, I just remember Gabby rubbing my back saying “Mom, it is ok, we are TEAM HOFFS!” Wow I needed to hear that!
The day drug by and Hayley returned from school. We decided to indulge ourself with some good ole comfort food!!! So dinner time came and we decided that CRACKER BARREL was the place to go! The whole atmosphere at Cracker Barrel is just what we needed! Warmth, coziness, and CANDY!!
Now I have to tell you, I am not a mom who lets my girls just eat a lot of junk food and candy! I am a mom of moderation, however I did let my girls indulge that night! We all did!! The lesson that I wanted to teach my girls is that it is ok to feel sadness, it is ok to have a night of indulgence , but TOMORROW is a new day, and we will put our best foot forward and move on! We went to bed that night, woke up the next day feeling like we could conquer the world because we are TEAM HOFFS, we can do anything!
I wonder though, did I teach them to go to food for comfort or did I teach them that some times us girls just need a night of indulgence and it’s ok, but we must move on? Just another thing for me to stress about! What do you think?